I definitely needed that break. And while I’m no longer burnt out I do feel depressed with the whole election situation. Pray to god something happens because I don’t know if I can take four years of this. I just want anyone who is by any chance reading this to know that you’re not alone and hopefully we can get through this. Though I’m not gonna lie and say that I’m not very upset and scared. My twenties in general have just sucked horribly. But now that the negativity that ups my SEO score is out of my system, let me show you my work!
So... what have I been up to?
I’ve been spending a lot of the time doing volunteer work to add things to my resume but I have created this character design turnaround I really like. I’ve always wanted to try character design so I’m happy I’m taking the first steps towards it.
I’ve also made this digital painting that I really enjoyed as well. It reminds me of my old paintings that I did before I started doing digital art but with the more cartoony style I’ve been doing recently.
The good, the bad, and the things I'm terrified about.
After I took that break I honestly feel way better, not just doing art but also just in general. I feel like I have more energy and I’m starting to build up a sort of mental stamina that allows me to get more done. I’ve also acknowledged my fear of starting big projects and I’m working on that every day. Each day I’m making progress and I hope to be able to achieve the life I want for myself… now I know it’s a little late I guess with the time this post is coming out but I do want to get a little more serious…
If you’ve had the displeasure of being alive recently you probably know about the election. I’m not going to lie, I’m scared. I’ve have multiple friends and family members who will at best be negatively impacted by this and at worst possibly killed. But I have to be optimistic. Not in the sense that I’m going to think everything will work out but that I will survive.
I don’t really have anything to hope for but I have to be brave. Everyone who made the world a better place believed it was possible. I just hope that this fascist bullshit gets cut short and I don’t have to deal with it until I’m almost thirty. It sucks that my twenties, the time that everyone tells me I’m supposed to be laying the groundwork for a sustainable future as been upheaved by pandemics, family issues, burnout, and depression, but I’m not going to let that stop me. I just want anyone who is reading this to know that you are not alone, and whatever obstacles come up, I hope you can find love and safety in your lives as well as be able to fight this rise of hatred infecting everything around us.
Good luck, I wish you all the best.